It’s Christmas morning. I would have been awakened by the coffee pot were it not for the Shih tzu standing on my face giving me ‘gotta pee’ eyes. It’s my morning so I dress as quickly as I can in order to not be arrested for walking a dog with no pants on. On my way out the door I wish Burke a Merry Christmas. The subtext: make me a coffee while I’m away. Uber-subtle subtext: Add Bailey’s.

When I come back, I am happy – maybe too happy – to find that Burke has received the message loud and clear. I use this sweet, intoxicating coffee mix to wash down cookies and a butter cake whose every bite strips away one or two delicious months of my life. After two helping – with a side of candy – nausea creeps in. I defy the nausea by eating another helping of butter cake. Another mouthwatering month gone. I pour another coffee with Bailey’s and plop into my seat like the Emperor of Rome getting ready to watch plebes fight bears. It is, after all, Christmas.

During the year, I live a life of somewhat rigid regularity. I am up at 5:30 each morning. I stretch and drink three glasses of water, the second one has creatine in it to keep my body from falling apart at the joints. Then it’s black coffee and work for two hours before exercising. I have to do a low impact one these days lest my downstairs neighbors come up and throw a coffee cup at me at 8 am. I follow that up with two eggs and wash that down with a protein shake with fruit and honey. I then go to work. I eat a veggie wrap at lunch and my dinner would make a meat lover cry and pray for my soul. The evening sees more work – depending on what I have doing on with one of my side hustles – and I come down from that with Bigfoot television or Unsolved Mysteries or Abbott Elementary. I get in bed at 10ish and read until I fall asleep.

Wash

Rinse

Repeat

Tis the season to be merry. And what can aid merriment more than cracking a few eggs and dropping a pound of sugar into a glass of milk and then mixing it with three kinds of alcohol? Not a damn thing.

Booze has had already had a long, complicated, twin-engine relationship with the military. As had occurred in armies for centuries, men in Washington’s continental army were rationed a gill of rum each day (4 ounces). Alcohol was key to morale and order. But it came with its own problems. Everyone knows that alcohol makes civilians say and do stupid things. This truth has been entertaining and cringing humans for centuries. It’s no different for soldiers, who live in harsh conditions and live with daily pressures we can’t get. In the Revolutionary War alone, alcohol was blamed for desertions, sleeping on guard duty, failure to execute duties and jobs, and just being an asshole. It was blamed for excessive casualties along with Major General Adam Stephen, who would be the only high-ranking officer in the continental army relieved of his duty. During Washington’s sneak attack on the Hessians on Christmas 1776, the soldiers got into the Hessian rum. Their return across the Delaware was held up constantly because they had to keep fishing drunken soldiers out of the water. Aside from all that, once soldiers had too much to drink, they suddenly became probably embittered, potentially aggressive, definitely armed men who could no longer tell right from wrong or left from right.  

Similar worries had arisen at the US Military Academy at West Point around 1825. Concerns had been raised and cadets were often court martialled for visiting local taverns. The problem grew as discipline suffered and grades slipped. At an 1825 graduation shindig, a group of drunken soldiers hoisted West Point’s Commandant William Worth onto their shoulders and created a snake dance, during which they ran Worth through the campus. This was a big no-no in the army (up in the air meant easier to shoot). And it was also the straw that broke the camel’s liver. West Point superintendent Colonel Sylvanus Thayer, who had allowed booze in limited quantities on special holidays, put booze was on the kibosh list.

It’s just about winter and the days are short and begin to be swallowed up by night at around 3:30. The sun has been so absent that it’s included in the folk songs of the valley people. When I get the bus in the morning to work, I try to figure out who I’m with. Are they the winter people or the summer people?  

People are often sectioned into two categories: winter and summer. I think the membership-values are quite clear. Summer people like baking in the sun and sweating and 20-hour-long days. Winter people wish we could all hark back to a time when we lived in caves and hid from the megafauna that was running around the earth at that time using us as toothpicks.

I am a mall person. I want 70ish–75ish degrees, shade, and a Sbarro’s nearby just in case I want a slice of pizza the size of a bookcase. I have no will to deal with weather and seasonal discomfort. However, I do obey the unwritten rule that you can complain about one season and one season only. It’s not fair if you gripe about hot and cold weather. Choose one to bitch about and in the other season, suffer in private.  

Long ago I chose summer. The heat and I do not do well together. My body just loooves to sweat. And when I sweat in public, I look like I’ve just done something terrible criminal behavior for which I now await capture. It’s not a great look. Nope. Summer. I have never looked back.

But winter comes with its own challenges, among whose numbers none are the cold. This is my favorite thing about winter – bring on the cold days and the chilly nights. The dark is another story. And that story is unrelenting. Dark when we get up, dark when we leave for work, dark when we get home from work. In between? Yep. You guessed it: dark. Or at least gray.

There are lots of coping tips. To keep yourself positive, you should 1. Get sunlight, 2. eat lots of forest fruits and proteins, 3. down vitamins B, C, D and some other letters I can’t remember (because I don’t take enough vitamin B for memory help). 4. Don’t drink. 5. See people. 6. Reframe winter glumness (I guess like a seasonal it’s you, no me). 7. Read something light and absorbing. 8. Lower expectations (i.e. don’t take on too much work). 1. Write down a daily affirmation.

Right.

1. There is no sun. There is no light. There is only the gray and it will never end.

2. I do eat these things. I wish I could eat pizza too.

3. I think the vitamins are fighting for supremacy of my system. Based on my current symptoms (I am pink and now fear sunlight) I think D is winning.

4. Won’t dignify with response.

5. But I don’t like people in the sunny times.

6. This didn’t help. Just made me feel like winter had broken up with me and is now punishing me for withholding the jewelry.

7. This I will do. I read a lot of horror (maybe too much). I dreamed last night that all of the people in India disappeared. OK, definitely read too much horror.

8. Tis the most wonder—nah, tis the busiest time of the year. Work on work on work. So, whatever horror fiction doesn’t do to my psyche, the extra workload does. Maybe everyone in India was at their side gigs. Huh.

9. Today’s daily affirmation: this day will end.

Probably not what they had in mind.  

Yesterday, the dog and I were hanging on the couch. I was working, she was trying to pick a fight with me using a pair of my favorite socks. The fun ended when someone outside set off fireworks. Because what gray 2 pm on a Monday isn’t replete with fireworks that will disappear into the clouds 4 inches away from you?

When this happens, she gets upset and goes into the bathroom. It’s dark and quiet in there. She barks for us to come to her and then gets wary when we’re there. Burke decided to build her a small fort out of some blankets, pillows, and her favorite chair.

Amazingly, this worked. We put her in there and she quieted. She also seemed to be happy about the fact that her view from the fort included us and she was probably also the cookies I was feeding her.

Then it dawned on me.

A fort!

Well, I finished my work and then I went into my room. We have a few extra pillows and blankets and pretty soon, I had myself a neat little fort. I got in there with my reading light and my book. My breath is about the only sound I could hear. The pets visited quickly and wanted access. I hadn’t had time to post a No Girls Allowed sign, so contractually I had to let them in.  

I have no plans to leave. Well, not until the Indian population comes back from wherever they’re hiding out.

Now I just have to figure out how to get Burke to hand me cookies.

We live in a small flat. There are four living creatures and 12 legs. This of course is not counting the various spiders no doubt riding out the winter in my house. But the less I know about that, the better I will be able to sleep.

One of us is an old cat: pushing nineteen, I think. However, I too am old and don’t remember exactly when this old cat came to my shores. She has always been a rather rambunctious one and I never knew why. She is chatty, loud, occasionally aggressive, and overcome with the vapors if her food isn’t on time. There’s a change I once came across an article on how pets take on the characteristics of their owners, but I can’t remember, because I’m pretty sure I blocked it out of my memory. Or sent it to hell. Or both.  

Anyway, that young rambunctious cat is now an old cat. She walks like an old cat, and spends a lot of time looking at me and trying to figure out who exactly I am. But she can still move. She still occasionally explodes with the absurd ninja gifts that cats get to offset the fact that they puke for fun and can’t read books. Because if they could, they would surely rule this planet.

We have moved twice since I’ve had the cat and each time has been to a smaller flat. She was born into a wide palace where it was just me and her and occasional visitors. Then three of us moved to a smaller, but not small flat. Then we took on one more animal and the four of us moved to a smaller flat. When we moved, we left the cat in the old flat for a few days because the balcony would have been dangerous for her (i.e. she is, like all cats, curious and, as we know, this may be their undoing if they get too curious on a balcony 50 feet above the ground). But I spent time with her because I had to clean the old flat. When we finally brought her here a couple weeks later, the gratitude was palpable. I felt terrible about that: Could this old cat really think I’d abandon her now? I’d kick my own ass if I did that.

Where I now live in Prague gets very foggy in the winter months. This is because it sits on a plateau above Liben. Liben, as everyone knows, is very shady. Whatever the reasons, we spent the end of November, December and January is a cloud. Last Christmas, I wasn’t 100% convinced we’d been attacked by the Russians. I ate extra carbs in case I needed to store fat. I still store that fat – in the means of efficiency.

Nevertheless, this dense, high-climbing fog makes it like we’re in a Sherlock Holmes story in Victorian London. Sure, the kids on scooters and vaping residents kills that feel a bit. But we do have a group of homeless guys who hang out in the square that give a Holmesy vibe, especially the one who pushes himself around in his wheelchair with his remaining foot.

This foggy effect can be in turn disconcerting and cozy. Yesterday in the late afternoon, I was standing on my balcony looking out over the fog, I felt safe, warm, cozy. I was happy that I was up here and not down there; I was not in the spooky fog, where anything could get me – Jack the Ripper, vaping mugger, be-idioted scooter. From nowhere came a long, sad howl. A howl. Not a bark or a whine. A howl. And, as I said, long, drawn-out, sad, and not far enough to make me feel comfortable.

“Dog,” I said, comforting myself and my slippers. “Must be a dog.”

The long howl came again.

“A big dog, but a dog.”

One more big long howl.

“That’s a werewolf.”

I checked my watch: 3:51 pm. I then had to hedge my bets.